Need to know.
I would like to think your right aza except you are not walking in my shoes and haunted by not knowing as i have been all my life. Its no matter what i might find wether it will be good or bad it will be painful but it will put my mind at rest.
We all want peace of mind aza. My children and grandchildren have suffered from my not knowing who i am, and my having no one to identify with.
My parants are dead and i never did believe my mother gave her real name so i am not atall sure where i would start looking. Unlike you i believe in god i do not believe god or the creater of life would make some thing as complex as a human being to toss it aside that would be a pointless effort. Wether you care why the grass is green or not some thing created man we are too complex to be an accident.
